No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. I am not afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid. The same fluttering in the stomach, the same restlessness, the yawning. I keep on swallowing. At other times it feels like being mildly drunk, or concussed. There is a sort of invisible blanket between the world and me. I find it hard to take in what anyone says. Or perhaps, hard to want to take it in. It is so uninteresting. Yet I want the others to be about me. I dread the moments when the house is empty. If only they would talk to one another and not to me.

And grief still feels like fear. Perhaps more strictly, like suspense. Or like waiting; just hanging about waiting for something to happen. It gives life a permanently provisional feeling. It doesn’t seem worth starting anything. I can’t settle down. I yawn, I fidget, I smoke too much. Up till this I always had too little time. Now there is nothing but time. Almost pure time, empty successiveness.

— CS Lewis: Grief Observed  (via dionnemcfx)

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Anonymous asked:

You see what roctakon said?



he seems like a smart and nice guy and i respect his sober opinions about the need for us to generally behave decently toward one another. but there’s certain moments in the growth and evolution of culture where lines have to be crossed, taboos transgressed, feelings hurt and sometimes stupid shit has to go down for progress to be made.

for things to expand there has to be heat. punk rock would’ve never happened if everyone behaved with the kind of calm forethought, maturity and moral restraint he describes and pines for (let alone nwa, biggie, nas…) calling the gonz out for being the gonz is weak, anal and opportunistic. if you don’t like it don’t watch it. as long as no one’s getting hurt or going to jail no need to publicly shame free spirits into submission.

i personally draw the line at peeing on the homeless (or anyone else) but i think there’s a gray anarchic moral place between the egregious and the benign that needs to be worked in for anything to move. nice guys are great but there’s a reason they’re boring and impotent and we have more than enough of them around to keep things orderly.

behaving badly, and sometimes immaturely, fighting asshole security guards (and generally resisting oppression and mindless authority) is not only a right of passage and very enjoyable but also a symbolic/cathartic act of defiance that i think is really healthy and important in the skate community.

those battles represent resistance to the larger societal issues at play in a progressively repressive society (verging on a police state) like ours. especially in the inner city where asshole techie gentrifiers are on every corner with their lattes drawing up ever more lines we can’t cross. and forget about all the menacing, imbecilic cops everywhere. there has to be some danger, some chaos, lawlessness, some resistance, some push-back (however symbolic) or we’re all doomed — at least those of us smart enough to not spend all our time acquiring money and power.

why me? because it’s my revenge on this robotic society, because someone has to do it.
— gg allin


ellikerd asked:

What's the hardest part about rollerblading? Telling your parents you're gay.



Hardest part telling that joke, getting punch in the face💥


bitch ur under arrest what you say and do may be used in a court of shredding *hits da blunt while doing nollie backspin* dont run from me *manuals in front of you*



bitch ur under arrest what you say and do may be used in a court of shredding *hits da blunt while doing nollie backspin* dont run from me *manuals in front of you*


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Osteoporosis Drug Stops Growth of Breast Cancer Cells, Even in Resistant Tumors, Study Suggests

June 15, 2013 — A drug approved in Europe to treat osteoporosis has now been shown to stop the growth of breast cancer cells, even in cancers that have become resistant to current targeted therapies, according to a Duke Cancer Institute study.

The findings, presented June 15, 2013, at the annual Endocrine Society meeting in San Francisco, indicate that the drug bazedoxifene packs a powerful one-two punch that not only prevents estrogen from fueling breast cancer cell growth, but also flags the estrogen receptor for destruction.

"We found bazedoxifene binds to the estrogen receptor and interferes with its activity, but the surprising thing we then found was that it also degrades the receptor; it gets rid of it,” said senior author Donald McDonnell, PhD, chair of Duke’s Department of Pharmacology and Cancer Biology.

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Image: Osteoporosis in vertebra showing 3 microfractures
Dr. Michael Klein University of Alabama, AL
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Is this what December looks like?

Finally figured out the time machine